e motions

emotions are a strong weapon . Attacking you unknowingly, killing you softly . Sigh. Sometimes I’m really tired of being able to feel . I’m happy one moment unhappy de other moment will I go crazy soon I wonder . Sometimes I hope tt things can be simpler. But whether it will b simple, it depends on myself. What shld I do .

Happy soda

Yay today is we’d! Wooo 3 more days to wkend thou I will b working on sat haha by still I got more time to slp haha. Slp deprived these few wks too many late nights and too little slp! I need to return to my books soon most prob this sat. YMCA! Haha

De truth

seems to make all said to be lies ; so why tell de truth . it’s really better to keep your mouth shut your heart closed sometimes . I longed to be freed .

Itouchlove

Yay I’m using my itouch nw! Gd application so nw I can blog anywhere haha I’m still trying to figure out how to use whatsapp! I’m an it idiot lol mayb I shld try to upload a photo hah This yr cny is de best of de yr I had fun visiting my friends! I still haven visit my 2 buddies’ house though! More angbaos this yr $_$ wahaha n I gt an itouch!! Gosh thankyouuuu!!!! 🙂 Life can b beautiful if we choose to let go .

i reckon

it will be a good year.

i jus had a fight with my father; and in my head was ‘jus don care about him!” yes. im not in wrong. He is in wrong and he jus don admit it. Im softhearted, yes i am. So im gg to find ways to strengthen my heart muscles. you can say im stubborn, but if you think carefuly, if we don change, he wont change!!!

im not gg to blog abt him, because the next time, i promise i wont be so bothered by all these crap.

i still rem de times when i cried because of my father’s scoldings. as time passed by, i teared. and now, there isnt any tears anymore. issit because im numb to all these?

i hope i am. can i be a cyborg?  in this way, i don have to feel a single little thing.

maybe in this blog, you will find more emo entries than the happier ones, because my life is just like this. my SHIT LIFE. and im seriously sick of it. FCUK IT.

still alive!

yup im still alive!! hahaha gosh my SIM card is spoilt and i have lost all my contacts! so, please let me know your number through fb msg or msn!!!

or else i will be starting my conversation with ‘hey sorry you are?’

and my friend thought i went MIA. hahaha. sorry man. lol!

I wish, i can let it go.

happy-l e ss

as my two latest entries are both titled “___-less”. i wonder, why is there no ‘happy – le ss’ since there is sadless. lol.

i thought sadness and happiness work well together.

we had a farewell lunch today at east coast waraku, this was my 1st time there. and the chk wings were the most salty chk wings i had in my entire life. Serious! hahaa. but it was a great lunch. i bet we will miss kaylen a lot!! shes really a very fun-loving and nice friend!

and you know what, today i had a lift from my boss. hes driving something like a lambogini!! Gosh. once in a lifetime thing i guess; for me la. hahaha.

i shall take a picture and upload it someday.

🙂

v exciting experience. but actually when i was in de car, it seemed no difference whether im sitting in a honda. lol and im serious.

and!!! i dont know wheres de handle to pull de car door open!! man. so paiseh ok! lol.

and and the supper was great 🙂 thankyou for coming!!! :))))

talking about today’s class, it was quite funny because i was the 1st to leave de class as st was waiting for me, the teacher wished me Gong xi fa cai and everyone turned and looked at me as i was trying to escape. LOL. the teacher is an indian.

self l e s s ;

those who are self l e s s are those who tend to be played out.

i have so many experiences with these. lol. tired of it! hahaa. why do i always like to make sure nobody is being left out? i jus don understand why. but at the end of de day, im always de one who got left out. lol! i don know whats de logic behind it. haha.

sometimes i wonder; what is the purpose of me hanging out with ppl whom im not really close to? lols. de me in de past wont entertain this kind of outing. maybe as we grow older, our mindset broadens?

i think i have grown old these few mths,w ith the super hectic schedule that i have now. 7 days a wk to me seem not enough. weekends out with friends or studying, seriously i feel so bad for nt visiting my godparents. but de devil in me keeps pyscho-ing me to go out and have fun.

i m r ea lly stressed up. lol. i jus wan to have F – u – n . do i have the rights to do so?

life-less

thats what im feeling now.
lol. skipping dinner for a Day is bad for me, not to say a few days! man i wonder how the girls go on diet its really a torturing process!

and fortunately im not malay!! don have to fast lol. i really admire my malay friend because she can have 3hrs straight netbaall training during fasting!

i have an qn. are those who are attached don have de rights to know opposite sex?

somehow i feel that the world is so big, you never know what happens next. so whats the issue of knowing more friends? haha.

on a lighter note, my mentor is working harder now after i told him tt im rushing for datelines. haha he got a shock! because a junior is telling him she is rushing de invisible dateline at the 1st wk of the mth. LOL. i dunno why i always have de courage to do stupid stuff like asking for alternate sat off and wearing slippers and shorts to work. where they are forbidden.

maybe i have enough of it. lol! im so happy to see him challenging with me! because it means tt hes working hard! LOL. 🙂 i have succeeded in motivating him! Gosh why am i so happy! haha.

yup today we went bedok to tabao lunch! gosh though i stay at bedok its been some time since i ate at de hawker! suddenly forgot wahts nice there man. lol.

and de orange juice is so nice!!:) mus try! hahaa.

we had our lunch at that secret place and it was really fun! lol. its amazing that dion can click with us because the grp consists of 7girls! lol! he never fails to remind me of celine dion! i asked him why his parents named him tt;

‘my mum jus thought that its a nice name.’

lol alright so its not de answer im looking for. haha.

hehe my workplace. 🙂