I had my haircut

And now I’m trying to build up my stamina for more changes hahah.

everyone needs to grow up

anyway its not the 1st time i will get backstabbed so i guess theres nth to worry about. BUT STILL, i don know what she will do to me since my boss seems to like her so much. (definitely more than me and my colleagues)

sometimes i wonder y do ppl have endless problems. now i realised that the problem lies with the people itself. how things change depends on how you react to it. so what i can do now is to take up de challenge and see how it goes. i cant admit defeat before i even see that girl right?

on a lighter note, i don even know that people do miss me until recently. lol. i mean those ppl whom i tot they wont. i really appreciate it!! to miss a person who din even have time for them. but i promise i will really try my best.

sometimes feelings can be complicated.

maybe its a mistake?

well we are human afterall.

Mixtape

You know wat , I kinda miss someone . It’s a werid feeling .

Its nvr coming back, once its gone

Hmm sometimes I wish tt I can be more carefree but things r nt easy .

Once friends drifted apart, r they nt coming back？ no?

It takes 2 hands to clap n frankly speaking i’m lethargic alrd. I can’t b bothered with those nonsense anymore. Life is short, cherish it .

not working?

De doctor said my valves might not be working normally n told me to go fr a check up when I visited her wks before. But she said it’s nt life threatening it’s just tt I can’t do strenous exercise anymore.

Frm then, I have been listening to my heartbeat, hoping it won’t stop when I flare up lol it sounds scary to me.

I’ve been studying diligently n have completed 10chps leaving 6 chps to go! Arg i’m nervous. On one hand I hope I din stress my heart too much, on another I hope I can complete my syallabus.

Lol I nvr know hw much strength I have until today. Surviving all this on my own is nt easy bt I made it!

Sometimes I jus hope tt someone can b there. Well, it’s better to depend on myself ya? Lol I feel really shagged.

Tml still hav to work my god .

It’s gloomy . It’s gonna b gloomy .

Dead

Sometimes i wonder does it make a diff if I were gone?

Or mayb it doesn’t affect anything at all.

Haha, today is mother’s day I bought a Teddy bear n flower fr my aunt n she was really happy! I felt realky proud of my purchase wahah.

But de nex moment her daughter commented something like, ‘also din give angbao’ in their dialect, thinking tt I don know what she meant.

I was stunned by wat she said n quite hurt honestly. Yet I could onky pretend that I don know anything n continue smiling.

My godma was so excited tt she searched high n low for de vase to put de flower haha! I was so glad tt at least she appreciated de gift, and tts enough.

Another reason y I don give her angbao is tt I know her character too well, she will give me back de same amount of angbao in return. So does it make any difference?

Coincidentally, we were watching this show on chn u, n this wicked woman only know to give money to satisfy de old lady. N this old lady was so angry because she think tt money is not everything.

Lol! I don have to say anythjng because tt show depicts my feelings towards this.

My godpa walked me home yst, and suddenly I realised hw much I have missed out. Since 1st of Jan I have been hanging out w the group of friends of mine n I really regretted not paying more attention to my godparents who treated me like their princess.

Y am I such a fool.

Mmm

It’s 6am and I’m still here! Gosh. I have no idea y I kept waking up at this werid hour! It’s quite scary actually.

I was browsing through fb n i realised hw different we can be.

There r always ppl leading a more colourful life than mee bt there r ppl who r jus contented with wat they r having now. Nevertheless we are living in one small dot. Lol sometimes I really thought de difference can’t b so big.

We belong to a different world

Realisation hit .

I need it badly

I need my beauty slp b a d l y ;

Yawn .

Is there any way to cure dark eye rings? Lol i’m becoming a panda! Gosh. Sadness overwhelmed when I saw de pictures of myself in de past! Hahaa feel so shitty.

Been having too much late night activities n fun these few mths! Woo . It makes me feel that my days haven shortened because I always have nt much time to rest. Too much committments aren’t gd fr health n I got a taste of it.

Haha did anyone miss my blog; I wonder.

It’s been really a while since I updated a proper entry . Right nw I’m using my itouch to blog as I realky don have time to on de com at home these days .

I still rem my cousin n jul asking me y don’t I update my blog anymore! Lol aw.

Actualky I miss those days where I blogged almost everyday . Haha

Yawn. I need to slp early tonight n get up early tml 🙂 studyyyy! I will push on!

Life is Like a rollercoaster ride

Ups n downs .

Really happy that at least I got back into track 🙂 study study study, finally sorted out my notes . Everything seems clearer and this is de time to charge forward !!

Lol gotta apply fr study leave by hook or by crook!

Life fr me has been fulfilling for now 🙂

Staying at home to me nw is a bliss cos I’m out almost 7 days a wk lol. My schedule is so packed; with dinners with godparents, out, studies .

Hmm mayb this is de life I’m looking for lol! Or else it will b too bored fr me!

Therefore I mus enjoy every moment of it. Fighting!!