Mixtape

You know wat , I kinda miss someone . It’s a werid feeling .

Aw

I’m treating here like a Twitter? Lol gosh I nvr had one n I nvr tot of having one lol but I guess maybe I need one, to vent my emotions on. (mayb it’s nt a bad thing afterall) but till nw I havenot muchideaonhowitworks.

I feel that things have changed, they aren’t wat I think they r now.

I’m curious yet I don wsnt to know de truth. Ironic isn’t it so I ve decided nt to find out but to move on.

I’m gonna do what I have planned to do. Not gg to chk out this time round, I’m gg to put on braces n do my Hep b jab .

You got to move it, move it. Haha Things won’t change when u do nth about them n since u don wan to do anything abt it yet, u have to put ur energy on other serious stuff. Xxxo.

lets slide away

we’ll find a way

Its nvr coming back, once its gone

Hmm sometimes I wish tt I can be more carefree but things r nt easy .

Once friends drifted apart, r they nt coming back？ no?

It takes 2 hands to clap n frankly speaking i’m lethargic alrd. I can’t b bothered with those nonsense anymore. Life is short, cherish it .

not working?

De doctor said my valves might not be working normally n told me to go fr a check up when I visited her wks before. But she said it’s nt life threatening it’s just tt I can’t do strenous exercise anymore.

Frm then, I have been listening to my heartbeat, hoping it won’t stop when I flare up lol it sounds scary to me.

I’ve been studying diligently n have completed 10chps leaving 6 chps to go! Arg i’m nervous. On one hand I hope I din stress my heart too much, on another I hope I can complete my syallabus.

Lol I nvr know hw much strength I have until today. Surviving all this on my own is nt easy bt I made it!

Sometimes I jus hope tt someone can b there. Well, it’s better to depend on myself ya? Lol I feel really shagged.

Tml still hav to work my god .

It’s gloomy . It’s gonna b gloomy .

its good to be back

 

woot its good to be back to blogging! 🙂

its beeen a long timeee haha i miss blogging!

i have a lot to say but suddenly i forgot what im gg to say! haha im still mugging for my last paper, freedom will be back on thursday! YES. hahahaaa. OH YEAH.

yup, till then. back to mugging :))

Great job, cameraman! :)

 

Qiudan’s 21st birthday! 🙂

i don know how we did it, but somehow we made it! haha the cameraman is great isnt it. lol frankly speaking, i forgot who was the cameraman haha because there were so many people who turned up at Qiudan’s 21st yesterday!

gosh haha saw many of my juniors from bgss and HTM! wahhaha HTM rocks!

when we were taking de grp photo, we got de urge to yell our course name, HTM!! hahaha but there were only two of us wahha! darn funny, we were committed to our course. Luckily BZE peeps didnt hear me screaming HTM away. phew thanks to my height. lol!

happy to see them because they still remember me, though it was been really a long time since i met up with them. not to mention my good old friends tzehui and lyna. hahah gosh we have not been meeting up since Jan 2010!

actually i regretted not having an 21st birthday celebration; there goes my presents and fun. lol!

well, maybe i shld hold it next yr, 23rd Birthday celebration (23 is a nice no. afterall). HAHA.

Life is like a roller coaster ride. But not to worry, my freedom will be back soon!! I need to work hard, hard, hard. Good things will come only when we work hard for it. 🙂

Silence is gold

I never believe that till I experienced it myself. So keep your mouth n heart n mind shut is de best policy.

Haha . But if u r a person who can take critism all de time you don have to .

Life has been really notes n notes after work notes after dinner notes after running notes . Well maybe u don believe because I can’t believe that myself too .

Haha but seriously i gt no time to waste as I’m working so half of de day is gone.

Yst i saw my ex coursemate n I still rem him as de cutest guy in my cohore. Hsha! Hmm but he reminds me of us growing old that’s quite sad,.

Lol I can’t believe I’m turning 22 this yr! Man!

Hmm honestly speaking I don know wat they have said about me thought about me. I’m concerned because I considered them as gd friends. But now, thinking back y shld I care when they don really care abt my feelings in de 1st place.

If u wanna find out de real reason u can come straight to me right?

Ive been Mugging fr a month, not even a word of concern?

Lol . Maybe I shld chn my perspective, mayb they r jus gd weathered frens?

Wshahs I suddenly feel like a fool .

That’s quite sad .

Dead

Sometimes i wonder does it make a diff if I were gone?

Or mayb it doesn’t affect anything at all.

Haha, today is mother’s day I bought a Teddy bear n flower fr my aunt n she was really happy! I felt realky proud of my purchase wahah.

But de nex moment her daughter commented something like, ‘also din give angbao’ in their dialect, thinking tt I don know what she meant.

I was stunned by wat she said n quite hurt honestly. Yet I could onky pretend that I don know anything n continue smiling.

My godma was so excited tt she searched high n low for de vase to put de flower haha! I was so glad tt at least she appreciated de gift, and tts enough.

Another reason y I don give her angbao is tt I know her character too well, she will give me back de same amount of angbao in return. So does it make any difference?

Coincidentally, we were watching this show on chn u, n this wicked woman only know to give money to satisfy de old lady. N this old lady was so angry because she think tt money is not everything.

Lol! I don have to say anythjng because tt show depicts my feelings towards this.

My godpa walked me home yst, and suddenly I realised hw much I have missed out. Since 1st of Jan I have been hanging out w the group of friends of mine n I really regretted not paying more attention to my godparents who treated me like their princess.

Y am I such a fool.

Mmm

It’s 6am and I’m still here! Gosh. I have no idea y I kept waking up at this werid hour! It’s quite scary actually.

I was browsing through fb n i realised hw different we can be.

There r always ppl leading a more colourful life than mee bt there r ppl who r jus contented with wat they r having now. Nevertheless we are living in one small dot. Lol sometimes I really thought de difference can’t b so big.